Balancing

So I so badly want to be one of those moms/wives that have it all together. Their kids look good, they look good, their house looks good. I know that no one is perfect, but man how do so many pull off the look of perfection. I feel like if I devote too much time to one area of my life then another gets neglected, but when I try to accomplish everything that I want, nothing is done quite right. Then I get to the point of thinking, nothing is great, so I think I'll just have a glass of wine, find someone trashy on TV and feel a little better about where I am. The problem with giving off the perception of perfection is that I'm too much of an open book, or maybe I whine too much to ever really pull it off. I'll ask someone how's it going and I get the standard response - kids are good, husband is good, job is good (and then the of course unsaid but fact that they look good). Someone asks me how it's going and they get - Zachary won't eat and he's stubborn as a mule and I don't know how to handle him sometimes, I left Eric at home for the weekend while I took Zachary on a trip and came back to dishes in the sink which annoyed me, my job is ok, but I had this guy yell at me the other day for something I didn't think was a big deal, but apparently it was, I don't really have any path right now to do something different internally, but I'm not sure that I can do the same job for the next 20 years (and then the of course unsaid but fact that I'm clearly not sticking to a diet, my hair isn't fixed, my make-up is almost rubbed and yes those are circles under my eyes). The person probably thinks to themself wow this chick is sort of a mess. So that leaves me to wonder, what's my next move to figure it all out. Well isn't it obvious - I'll start a cleanse Monday to jump start the looks department and that will motivate me to stick to dieting and surely having perfect hair and make-up will follow. Eric and I will have a heart to heart on why these little things bother me and it won't happen again. Zachary will start to understand that when I ask him to try new things, I think it'll be fun, it's not torture him and from here on out we'll be all smiles when we are in public. Finally, I will find a new opportunity at work to push for and it will go very well. It's a perfectly feasible, reasonable plan.